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More On Enlightenment
- by Kiara Windrider
"Man cannot make it (Enlightenment) on his own, it has to be given
to him." - Sri Bhagavan
What is Enlightenment?
Bhagavan defines it differently in different contexts. For a neurologist
it is the shutting down of certain parts of the parietal lobe. For
a biologist it is a heightening of the senses. For a psychologist,
it is the loss of the ego. For the philosopher it is becoming a
witness to life. For someone on a spiritual path, it is about opening
your heart to life, and developing the capacity to love.
When asked to define love, Bhagavan says that he can only tell
you what love is not. It is not about neurotically possessing another
person. It is not based in neediness or attachment or fear of loss.
It is not a justification to control somebody's life. What most
people call love is not love, he emphasizes. To experience love
you require a mutation in your physical brain. Only then can you
experience the love of a Buddha or a Christ. No amount of spiritual
or psychological effort can take you there.
Enlightenment is to be free from the sense of separate existence,
he emphasizes. The sense of a fixed identity disappears. Once you
become enlightened, what exists is only the other. You experience
oneness with all creation, and eventually oneness with God. You
experience the gift of being human. You experience what it means
to give and receive love.
In the realization of this oneness, there is joy. As long as the
self exists, it can experience pleasure, but not joy. When things
are going your way, you experience pleasure; when things are not,
you experience pain. But this is very different from the causeless
joy of pure being where you are no longer separate from any aspect
of creation or creator, no matter what the circumstances of life.
Bhagavan says that the next best thing to enlightenment is knowing
that you are not enlightened. This is not a frivolous statement.
"Don't pretend to be enlightened if you are not", he affirms. Many
of us on a spiritual path have built up a spiritual persona around
ourselves that is as difficult to break through as any of the darker
expressions of the mind, and perhaps more so.
The main obstacle to enlightenment is not in the particular quality
of the self-identity that we create, whether it is coarse or refined,
material or spiritual, but in our degree of attachment to that identity.
We assume that our journey towards enlightenment is a linear progression,
and that we can become better and better people until someday we
cross the finish line and we're there.
It is perhaps easier for a simple person to get enlightened whose
head is empty of concepts than someone who has walked for years
on a spiritual path and has all kinds of concepts and expectations
about what enlightenment is or should be, or what she is or should
be. Ironically, the more attached we become to a spiritual persona,
the more we develop a spiritual ego, and the further we get from
the enlightened state. The mind delights in creating an 'as if'
image of the enlightened self. Now it can continue its game of comparison
and judgment, except on a more sophisticated level.
Being good does not threaten its survival, as long as we are simultaneously
disowning the bad; being spiritual is fine as long as we continue
judging ourselves or others for not matching up to our neurotic
expectations. We take the dim radiance of our divinity that still
manages to shine through the thick layers of the mind, and enshrine
it with religiosity, stifle it with morality, distort it with self-righteousness,
and destroy it with spiritual egoism.
I am not implying that it isn't desirable to strive towards morality,
goodness, and love. There is a reason that religions exist, and
many people have been enabled by being on the spiritual or psychological
path to refine or even transform their ego. As a spiritual teacher
and psychotherapist, I have seen the power of meditation, and of
techniques such as holotropic breathwork, psychosynthesis, regression
therapies, and bodywork, to begin to heal the traumas of the past
and polish the rough edges of our personality.
If refining and clearing the mind is our quest, then by all means
we must continue doing everything that we can in this direction.
However, if enlightenment is our quest, we cannot get there by trying
to develop enlightened qualities. We need to come to an understanding
of the very nature of the mind.
In the courses offered at Oneness University, the first few days
are about becoming aware of the prison of our mind. It isn't about
trying to change any of it, because you cannot. You are simply witnessing
the reality of your mind as it is, the emotional charge, the habit
patterns, the assumptions, the traumas, the conditioning, and the
masks that we build up in order to survive. As you witness, you
begin to strip down the social and spiritual personas, and you begin
to understand the nature of mind.
You become aware that enlightenment is simply about 'de-clutching'
from the mind.
We need to be clear that enlightenment does not mean changing the
contents of the mind or getting rid of the mind. To become de-clutched
from the mind means that you recognize the mind for what it is,
which then no longer has power to make your decisions for you. It
is not about becoming mindless, but rather about becoming what the
Buddhists call 'mindful', being present with reality as it is.
Most of us feel identified with the mind, but we are not the mind.
The mind can be a very useful tool. However, enlightenment isn't
about escaping from the mind, as many people believe, but simply
'de-clutching' from it. After enlightenment, you find that you are
no longer controlled by the mind, and can de-clutch from it when
it is not needed. When the mind is needed, however, consciousness
comes through and uses the mind with a sharpness, clarity, and versatility
not possible before.
To be de-clutched from the mind is to lose the sense of 'self'
as a fixed, separate, continuous entity which we refer to as 'I'.
Enlightenment is the realization that there is no self to get enlightened.
We cannot change the nature of the mind. The mind is simply the
mind, but after enlightenment, our relationship with the mind changes.
We no longer become enslaved by the content and conditioning of
the mind. Thoughts may still come and go, emotions may still come
and go, but we recognize that they are not 'our' thoughts or emotions
any more. In this recognition we experience freedom.
Bhagavan teaches that there is no such thing as a personal mind.
Yes, we have individual thoughts, but they are simply emanations
from what he calls the Ancient Mind, a collective 'thoughtsphere'
of humanity that has existed from the beginnings of our current
civilization, perhaps 11 or 12 thousand years ago. All our fears,
inadequacies, turmoil and pain, all our lusts, addictions, insecurities
and greed, all our hatred, rage, jealousies and judgments, belong
to this thoughtsphere. Additionally, many of our impulses for kindness,
beauty, pleasure, happiness and courage also exist within this thoughtsphere.
Our brain can be visualized as a radio receiving station that picks
up these frequencies at random, depending on our state of mind or
health, physical environment, or various astrological factors. Our
own individual traumas or conditioning from the past also contribute
to the band of frequencies that we select.
However, our thoughts are not our own thoughts. Because our brain
is programmed for separation, we receive these thoughts, feelings,
impressions, and emotions as if they were our own, thereby separating
us even more effectively from the rest of humanity, which we perceive
to be better than, less than, or somehow different from us.
We watch a movie on the screen and very quickly get lost in the
illusion that it is real. However, if we slow it down so that we
can see it frame by frame, we realize that it is only a movie. In
exactly the same manner, we are conditioned by the self to perceive
our own life as a living movie.
Enlightenment creates a fine-tuning of the senses where we realize
that the sense of a fixed continuous self is an illusion generated
by the neurological circuitry of our brain. There is a continual
dance of personalities, but no fixed or continuous self that somehow
remains the same from birth to death. Consciousness flows through
your body moment by moment, but it is the same consciousness that
flows through all creation.
When there is no self, there is no craving or attachment. Cravings
and attachments are based on a sense of separate existence, or self-importance,
where you continually desire things you do not have, or have what
you do not desire. When there is no separate self, attachments and
cravings cease. When cravings and attachments cease, there is no
suffering.
We are not talking about physical or psychological suffering here,
but existential suffering. Existential suffering is the incessant
desire to be experiencing something other than what is. It is not
our pain that causes us suffering, but our resistance to that pain.
It is our attempts to escape from suffering that cause us suffering!
Enlightenment means to experience the reality of each moment as
it comes your way, without needing to resist it or change it in
any way. Once you are willing to fully experience what is there,
you are no longer separate from reality. You experience the truth
of each moment directly as it is. You become freed from the interference
and conditioning imposed by the mind. You experience the causeless
joy of being!
You still have mental pathways of old habits, memory and personality,
but you are no longer a solid thing. The self becomes porous, and
the winds of eternity become capable of blowing through freshly
in every moment. You are no longer a fixed 'person' but a dance
of 'personalities' blowing in and out of awareness. You are not
even a witness separate from yourself, watching things blowing in
the wind. You are the wind.
You may still have likes and dislikes, emotions may still come
up, but there is no charge left, and as soon as they come up they
will likewise go away, just like an infant throwing a tantrum one
moment, and staring in wonderment at a little tiny caterpillar the
next. There may still be emotional habit patterns imprinted in the
body, but these too subside over time.
Another realization that comes after enlightenment is that your
body is not your body. Most of the functions of the body are involuntary,
but you realize that even the functions that you think were voluntary
are not really yours to control. During an enlightenment experience,
many people report that their body goes through all sorts of involuntary
postures and movements, tears and laughter, completely independent
of personal will. It may also become totally immobile, and you realize
that there is nothing you can do to make it move, unless it chooses
to.
Your relationship with your body changes. You no longer identify
with it as yours; rather it simply becomes a beautiful vehicle for
consciousness to use. You understand how privileged you are to have
this lovely, living body as a means to express the Divine in the
world. Each taste, each smell, each sound, each vision, each touch
is exquisite, and is as if you are experiencing it for the first
time. Each thought, likewise, comes with its own living freshness
directly from the consciousness of each moment, an experience that
the Zen Buddhists refer to as 'beginner's mind'!
Enlightenment begins with the ability to witness all these things.
As you move into deeper states of Unity and God-realization, you
discover that you have become one with all creation, and that indeed
the sense of your own body embraces all of creation. Eventually
you discover that you have become one with the Creator as well as
creation. You realize, in the words of Jesus two thousand years
ago, that "I and the Father are One".
In a nutshell, Sri Bhagavan teaches that:
1. There is only one Mind - the Ancient Mind. It is conditioned
by separation and duality.
2. Your mind is not your mind , but an extension of this Ancient
Mind.
3. Similarly, your thoughts are not your own thoughts, but downloaded
from the 'thoughtsphere' associated with this Ancient Mind.
4. The sense of a separate self is generated by the neurobiological
structure of the human brain.
5. This 'self', in experiencing itself as separate, generates cravings,
aversions, comparisons and judgments, which are the core of suffering.
6. When the self disappears, suffering ends. When cravings drop
away, including the craving for enlightenment, you are enlightened.
7. When the 'deeksha' is given, a neurobiological process begins,
which leads to the dissolution of the sense of a separate, or fixed,
self.
8. When the fixed self disappears, you experience yourself as simply
a dance of personalities continually arising and passing away.
9. Your body is not your body. When the self disappears, your sense
of ownership of the body disappears, and you experience it as a
vehicle for the divine dance of consciousness. Eventually, all creation
becomes your body.
10. The mind, based in duality, cannot be enlightened.
11. The self, which is an illusion, cannot be enlightened. The self
is only a concept.
12. Enlightenment is the realization that there is no self to become
enlightened!
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